niilla

i dont like when you dont call me as often as before. and when it seems like it dosent matter to you if im near you all the time or not. i dont like when you have a ring on your finger who someone else than me gaved you. i dislike your ata-tshirts, because i was there when you created them, thats the only reason. i dislike your new short text message, you used to send me long messages filled with love explanations and not this short ones containing just an A or OK. i dont like that you dont take the chance to come home to me when im inviting you. and i dont like that you dont invite me to your apartment more often. i dislike when you are with other girls, especially new girlfriends, and you dont tell me that you are hanging out with her or are with her, just the two of you. im jealous, and by admit that you should know, that i just want you for my own.

i dont want to share you, i want you to call me in the middle of the night and tell me how much you miss me and love me. i love to hear those words. or call me while im in class and tell me you just needed to hear my voice, just for looking care for me. i want you to think of me as the only girl in the world. the one for you. i want you to say honestly that i am you girlfriend and that you are the happyies guy on earth. and most of all i want you to want this, just because you want to. i want to be the girl that takes care of you. i want to be the only girl you love. i wanna be that girl

the girl that i know i used to be and i hope i always will be.

Maybe it's not gonna be easy. Maybe it's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.

I love you, i truly do. Always and forever.